Transparent Heart

I went to see Little Women the musical last night and I'm sure that most people do this, but during the really emotional parts I began to think about things that I'm personally emotional about. I had a realization, an epiphany of sorts.

There's this guy that I've had a thing for off and on for a while (5 yrs). Thing is that I haven't ever quite understood fully WHY I am attracted to him. Don't get me wrong, he's attractive, but he isn't really my type. I see some great qualities in him, great qualities, but I also see some that just don't jive with where I'm at. Anyway, last night I realized that for whatever reason, when I look at him I see his heart. The other things don't matter. I'm not sure what this is supposed to mean. I've always believed that God puts people in our paths for a reason. Usually to teach us something important about ourselves or so that we may teach them something. With this guy I'm not sure what that is (not that I think we are ever sure) but I AM sure that when I look at him I see his heart.

Maybe the lesson is to find out if he sees mine. I'm pretty guarded with it. Wait, who am I kidding? I have a 10 foot brick wall up around mine. So maybe it's nothing more than realizing that it's okay to share mine again - even if it might end up broken?